Has the first part of your life been shitty? Or just not what you wanted? If so, did you know you have built up energy in you that you have yet to tap into?
The moment you pivot from who you thought you were to who you actually are is the moment that you activate 'thrust mode'. You will be shot out into your true self once you remove all baggage and distractions. Then you can work on your catalyst event that will spark the next part of your journey. The pullback is really the conflicts that take you from butter knife to cutting knife. Smooth seas don't create skilled mariners. The Slingshot Theory is your friend, so use it and get thrusting.